It's easier to give up in e-mail

I won't lie to you. I also dumped girls in e-mail. It's easier and, after only three dates common courtesy doesn't dictate other behavior. My pain is for she never even said 'no'. It looks like she gave up. It was easier for her to run away, to forget.

And why is it so painful after only three dates? Well, that's the whole point. It's painful because after three dates it hurts and that's not a common thing.

I'm in Sheffield, UK. Sky was dark today as appropriate for English weather. And good for that. I don't know how I would deal with the pleasant European sun in such a day. In the afternoon the skies were red with frustration. Yes, frustration. It's all very frustrating. Forecast for the weekend is rain. I hope they miss the forecast because I don't feel like crying.

And I told her that I don't write about personal stuff in my blog...

She wants to be alone

She wants to be alone. I understand her. It scares me too. You go to work in the morning, in the evening you get back to your fortress of solitude, eat whatever you want, watch whatever you want on TV. Master of your domain. You go for a stroll in the streets, go to friends. Then you got out with whoever you want or just stay home to read a book. Having someone else to consider is not easy. In this town you're never alone but it's easy to forget that you're lonely.